Tuesday, April, 1st, 2025
I didn't realize my heart was going to break multiple times. That every time I would remember the reality, it would break more. That every time that new reality would sink in, it would break again. That it's a constant breaking and suffocating. That my throat would close up everytime I had to say it out loud. "it's over". That my eyes would fill with tears and blurry vision was going to become the new normal. That the pain in my chest was going to be the new normal. That this pain was going to be my companion for so long. Maybe that's the secret in going better, making this pain my friend? Using it as an armor, a crutch. And then maybe one day I won't need it anymore. And I'll be able to let her go. Just like I will be able to let you go.
One day, maybe.