And for a tiny suspended moment, life feels ok. A friend makes a joke and I laugh. A true, authentic laugh. A good song comes on while I'm cooking and I'm dancing in the kitchen again.
Some moments are good. The pain in my chest is weaker and I can breathe.
Like a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day, reminding you that just because the sun is hidden doesn't mean it's gone. I can finally see that the pain won't last forever. That happiness is right there, close by, ready to be mine again once it's time.
But first, we grieve, we cry, we feel it all and we let it all go.